I had lived seventy-six years without a garbage disposal. There wasn’t such a convenience when I was a young girl growing up in the country. Even after I was out of school and married, garbage disposals were for fancy homes.

As the accuser, Satan lives his life around one single purpose: accusing you. Sad, huh? But he loves nothing more than to get you twisted into fits of self-doubt and shame so that he renders you useless at proclaiming what God has done in your life. How does he do this?

“Do you really understand your position?”  I found that to be a tough question for me to answer when I was asked by the Holy Spirit.  I thought I did.  But honestly, I was unable to fully comprehend my true position.   My true position in Him, that is.  Sure I can understand my position as a mother.  I am learning to understand my position as a wife.  I’ve nailed my position as an insurance counselor.  But do I truly understand my position in Him? 

With each difficult situation in our family, I was forced to grow up and mature very quickly because expectations and standards rose high. My parent’s worries became mine as they took care of other responsibilities and I no longer felt as that adored daughter. Instead I became a goal achieving perfectionist, afraid to let my parents or others down in any way. Teenage years were brutal because I started to search in other places, that, what I pushed away from my parents - love and attention from my father and acceptance from my mother.